December 28, 2011
Day 19/21
Wow. If I ever doubted whether this diet works, my eating pattern in the last week of holiday planning and holidays is enough to tell me a resounding, "IT WORKS!" Besides having Chinese food 2 times in 3 days last week AND having Christmas Eve and Christmas food (as you all know, its NOT low carb/low cal/diet-centered), I have maintained my weight (I'm still 0.3 BELOW LDW!). Yesterday, I went to see the new Sherlock Holmes (action packed, fun, and, let's face it ... Jude Law & Robert Downey Jr. together are not hard on the eyes!) ... and, I planned (heck, I think I talked about it here a month ago!) to eat movie theater popcorn and have a Coke Zero. My first of both since starting this October 17. And, I did it. And, I gained a resounding ... NOTHING. I stayed exactly where I was yesterday, which was exactly where I was the day before, and the day before that.
I won't even go into a laundry list of exactly what I ate between Christmas Eve and last night, but, it was less than it would have been last year, but it definitely wasn't low carb. So, like the people on miracleskinnydrops talk about, if you follow the program exactly in P2 and P3 (so you end stabilized), you CAN have carb meals in P4 and not gain. THIS is why this will be a lifestyle for me. Not maybe. Not I hope. But, it WILL be a lifelong lifestyle once I get to my goal weight!
If I don't write again, have a wonderful New Year's Eve (be safe) and I'll see you in the new year. I'm gearing up to start again (the low calorie stuff) on January 2, and this time, I'm going to load for 3 days (I see either 2 or 3, and since Potterfest is starting on December 30, I'm going to load December 30 - January 1). Here's to seeing that counter (over there -->) move into the 40s, then the 50s and maybe even into the 60s in Round 2!!!
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
R1P4D15/21 - Mind over Matter matters!
December 23, 2011
Day 15/21
I "had" to have Chinese again yesterday afternoon. The final work Christmas lunch. Whew! Glad that is done. I only gained 1.4 pounds (making me at 34.6 off), and that still makes me 2.1 pounds below LDW. I'm happy about that. Happy about gaining weight? No, happy that, two out of three days of eating a lousy meal, I STILL am under LDW. That means I'm stabilized. Whew! That means I can do this for my life, without sacrificing during holidays, other special events. Good.
I am determined that I'm going to start loading (next Friday) 2 pounds below (at least) LDW. And, I'll be eating ham, green bean casserole and cheesy potatoes for Christmas (with Mom) and chili rellenos (among other things) with Mom and my honorary sister & family on Christmas Eve.
I pretty much think this is baptism by fire ... P4 during the major holiday season. And, I'm going to make it. It's mind over matter. And prayer. Prayer is everything!
Day 15/21
I "had" to have Chinese again yesterday afternoon. The final work Christmas lunch. Whew! Glad that is done. I only gained 1.4 pounds (making me at 34.6 off), and that still makes me 2.1 pounds below LDW. I'm happy about that. Happy about gaining weight? No, happy that, two out of three days of eating a lousy meal, I STILL am under LDW. That means I'm stabilized. Whew! That means I can do this for my life, without sacrificing during holidays, other special events. Good.
I am determined that I'm going to start loading (next Friday) 2 pounds below (at least) LDW. And, I'll be eating ham, green bean casserole and cheesy potatoes for Christmas (with Mom) and chili rellenos (among other things) with Mom and my honorary sister & family on Christmas Eve.
I pretty much think this is baptism by fire ... P4 during the major holiday season. And, I'm going to make it. It's mind over matter. And prayer. Prayer is everything!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
R1P4D13/21 - Load-worthy
December 21, 2011
Day 13/21
Today is officially a palindrome date. 12/21. Same forwards and backwards. And, it's Hannukkah (if you have to ask, no, I'm not Jewish). But, I digress.
Last night, Dad called and he and Carol (my step-Mom) wanted to celebrate Christmas early with me because Carol's Dad passed away, so our plans to celebrate on December 27 needed to be moved. NO prob. We had planned on them coming to my house for Chinese food (SO close to a loading day, I was going to risk it, so I could get in all of my load-worthy foods). Well, we decided that last night would work the best for all three of us. SO, they came to my house, and they both wanted to keep with the Chinese Food dinner. So, we went to a buffet. YIKES! But, I figured I could eat smaller portions of things and, it worked.
Since I was 3 pounds below LDW (technically, we're not supposed to be more than 2 pounds up or down ... I'm SO rogue!), I figured I had some wiggle room before I'd need to do another correction day (5 pounds to be exact). So, as I ate, I put things on my plate I normally wouldn't have (tilapia) at a buffet, and left things off that I normally would have eaten (General Tso's Chicken, crab rangoon, those little circle fried biscuits with powdered sugar, any dessert). BUT, I did eat about 9 coconut shrimp (MY FAVORITE), about 5 pieces of sushi (my first rice in over 2 months), those green beans that are soaked in something that I'm sure is bad for me, one stuffed mushroom (usually, I would have had at least 3), buttered mushrooms (I figured those were safe, unless they put sugar in them!), a frog's leg (who knew?). It was a LOT of food. AND, my step-Mom made her home-made fudge and chocolate chip cookies and gave them to me in a tin. I shared those with them, and ate one each. Again, HUGE splurge. But, I'm low in weight and I believe pretty stabilized. SIDE NOTE: I found out, those of us doing HCG are considered stabilized as long as we stay UNDER the 2-pounds-within-Last-Dosage-Weight.
So, back to the scale. I had eaten clean all day (except for the crumpet for breakfast), had more than my share of water and have been ready for bed (reading for maybe 30 minutes) and asleep at least 1 hour earlier than normal. So, I thought I'd be okay. I got on the scale last night, and was only up 2 pounds from the morning, so I thought that was good.
This morning, I stepped on the scale and ... was up only 1 pound! I actually yelled, "WOO HOO, thank you GOD!!!!!" I had hoped I wouldn't need a correction day. And, I don't. I am going to eat clean. But, what this is telling me is, all of the hard work I did (and I didn't cheat once) in P2, and to make sure I stabilized in P3 (no cheating there either, even when I was sick), this is a lifestyle I can keep forever!
This is the first time I've felt that. I have been wondering if I can always keep carbs out forever, but what I see now is, I can eat some, maybe for one meal every couple of days, and then eat normally (low carb is my new normal), and the weight will stay off! I never wanted to be a slave to the scale, and yet, I became a slave to all food and my urges. Now, I don't get tired during the day (I did today for the first time, and realize it's carb-come-down!), I have energy, positivity, and I'm happy. Go figure. I can do this for life.
So, I'm eating some rotisserie chicken for lunch, with some steamed cauliflower, an orange pepper, a little wedge of The Laughing Cow French Onion cheese (tastes yummy with the pepper & and a Chobani cherry on the bottom Greek Yogurt for lunch. That yogurt has a few carbs, and so does the pepper & also the cauli. But, I should be good. For dessert, I'm having a chocolate delite (these aren't so delightful this time) and a few macadamia nuts. That's a LOT of food. For breakfast, I had 1.5 eggs scrambled. For dinner, I think I'll have a Parmesan encrusted Tilapia and veggies. Oh, and a lot of water. Maybe even a black cup of coffee.
Let's see what tomorrow brings on the scale. I'm pretty confident it will be good.
Day 13/21
Today is officially a palindrome date. 12/21. Same forwards and backwards. And, it's Hannukkah (if you have to ask, no, I'm not Jewish). But, I digress.
Last night, Dad called and he and Carol (my step-Mom) wanted to celebrate Christmas early with me because Carol's Dad passed away, so our plans to celebrate on December 27 needed to be moved. NO prob. We had planned on them coming to my house for Chinese food (SO close to a loading day, I was going to risk it, so I could get in all of my load-worthy foods). Well, we decided that last night would work the best for all three of us. SO, they came to my house, and they both wanted to keep with the Chinese Food dinner. So, we went to a buffet. YIKES! But, I figured I could eat smaller portions of things and, it worked.
Since I was 3 pounds below LDW (technically, we're not supposed to be more than 2 pounds up or down ... I'm SO rogue!), I figured I had some wiggle room before I'd need to do another correction day (5 pounds to be exact). So, as I ate, I put things on my plate I normally wouldn't have (tilapia) at a buffet, and left things off that I normally would have eaten (General Tso's Chicken, crab rangoon, those little circle fried biscuits with powdered sugar, any dessert). BUT, I did eat about 9 coconut shrimp (MY FAVORITE), about 5 pieces of sushi (my first rice in over 2 months), those green beans that are soaked in something that I'm sure is bad for me, one stuffed mushroom (usually, I would have had at least 3), buttered mushrooms (I figured those were safe, unless they put sugar in them!), a frog's leg (who knew?). It was a LOT of food. AND, my step-Mom made her home-made fudge and chocolate chip cookies and gave them to me in a tin. I shared those with them, and ate one each. Again, HUGE splurge. But, I'm low in weight and I believe pretty stabilized. SIDE NOTE: I found out, those of us doing HCG are considered stabilized as long as we stay UNDER the 2-pounds-within-Last-Dosage-Weight.
So, back to the scale. I had eaten clean all day (except for the crumpet for breakfast), had more than my share of water and have been ready for bed (reading for maybe 30 minutes) and asleep at least 1 hour earlier than normal. So, I thought I'd be okay. I got on the scale last night, and was only up 2 pounds from the morning, so I thought that was good.
This morning, I stepped on the scale and ... was up only 1 pound! I actually yelled, "WOO HOO, thank you GOD!!!!!" I had hoped I wouldn't need a correction day. And, I don't. I am going to eat clean. But, what this is telling me is, all of the hard work I did (and I didn't cheat once) in P2, and to make sure I stabilized in P3 (no cheating there either, even when I was sick), this is a lifestyle I can keep forever!
This is the first time I've felt that. I have been wondering if I can always keep carbs out forever, but what I see now is, I can eat some, maybe for one meal every couple of days, and then eat normally (low carb is my new normal), and the weight will stay off! I never wanted to be a slave to the scale, and yet, I became a slave to all food and my urges. Now, I don't get tired during the day (I did today for the first time, and realize it's carb-come-down!), I have energy, positivity, and I'm happy. Go figure. I can do this for life.
So, I'm eating some rotisserie chicken for lunch, with some steamed cauliflower, an orange pepper, a little wedge of The Laughing Cow French Onion cheese (tastes yummy with the pepper & and a Chobani cherry on the bottom Greek Yogurt for lunch. That yogurt has a few carbs, and so does the pepper & also the cauli. But, I should be good. For dessert, I'm having a chocolate delite (these aren't so delightful this time) and a few macadamia nuts. That's a LOT of food. For breakfast, I had 1.5 eggs scrambled. For dinner, I think I'll have a Parmesan encrusted Tilapia and veggies. Oh, and a lot of water. Maybe even a black cup of coffee.
Let's see what tomorrow brings on the scale. I'm pretty confident it will be good.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
R1P4D12/21 - Helpful Websites
December 20, 2011
Day 12/21
Okay, for some of you who are considering doing this in 2012, here are some web-sites that have helped me:
Day 12/21
Okay, for some of you who are considering doing this in 2012, here are some web-sites that have helped me:
- (I track food, weight and talk to HCG friends Abbie, Amy and Carrie out here ... join us!)
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/ - (I ordered drops for R1 and R2 here)
http://www.healingpowerwithin.net/ - (Facebook Forum -- if you have questions, they immediately get back to you)
https://www.facebook.com/#!/groups/LittleChoicesMatter/ - (I ordered drops for R3 here recently)
http://miracleskinnydrops.com/ - (These are the people who run Miracle Skinny Drops and the FB forum)
http://www.littlechoicesmatter.com/
Monday, December 19, 2011
R1P4D11/21 - Floating
December 19, 2011
Day 11/21
Well, I did the cleanse bath last night. It seemed like nothing special. But, when I got up this morning, I was down 1.3 pounds! Since I was only 0.1 pound away from being "too low" (meaning, 2 pounds below my LDW), it probably wasn't the smartest move. BUT, I had 2 crumpets with Devonshire clotted cream and homemade grape jelly (on purpose) for breakfast (I'm getting a little sick of eggs), so I thought it might not be a bad idea. I also drank SO much water that I was floating all day (and literally, at night, in the tub!).
So, I'm officially at 35.7 off. It's probably good, because our work is going out (to a local fish place) for our Christmas lunch today. I'm hoping I don't rebound gain like I did before, when I was sick and dropped too low. Basically, I think this ... when I've been sick (or had surgery) on this diet, my system pretty much shuts down and gains a bit. I think that's normal. Liquids don't go through me like normal, so I think that's my body's way of holding onto what it needs to heal me. The gain is water weight. Then, after a week, I'm back to normal. That's what I think happened last week and the week in November on P3 when I had a fever. That actually makes me happy, because I don't have to be SO "anti-carb-Nazi" as I thought I'd have to be for life. Whew!
Day 11/21
Well, I did the cleanse bath last night. It seemed like nothing special. But, when I got up this morning, I was down 1.3 pounds! Since I was only 0.1 pound away from being "too low" (meaning, 2 pounds below my LDW), it probably wasn't the smartest move. BUT, I had 2 crumpets with Devonshire clotted cream and homemade grape jelly (on purpose) for breakfast (I'm getting a little sick of eggs), so I thought it might not be a bad idea. I also drank SO much water that I was floating all day (and literally, at night, in the tub!).
So, I'm officially at 35.7 off. It's probably good, because our work is going out (to a local fish place) for our Christmas lunch today. I'm hoping I don't rebound gain like I did before, when I was sick and dropped too low. Basically, I think this ... when I've been sick (or had surgery) on this diet, my system pretty much shuts down and gains a bit. I think that's normal. Liquids don't go through me like normal, so I think that's my body's way of holding onto what it needs to heal me. The gain is water weight. Then, after a week, I'm back to normal. That's what I think happened last week and the week in November on P3 when I had a fever. That actually makes me happy, because I don't have to be SO "anti-carb-Nazi" as I thought I'd have to be for life. Whew!
Sunday, December 18, 2011
R1P4D10/21 - Hallelujah!
December 18, 2011
Day 10/21
I cannot believe it! Last night, I went to my friend's house for homemade pizza night. I was a little worried because I haven't intentionally eaten that many carbs (pizza dough) in 2 months (since starting HCG on October 15). Well, I went armed with 4 things:
So, while we didn't eat until later than I normally would, I didn't care/freak out (I'm just realizing now) because, that's life. That'll be my life AFTER HCG, so, I better get used to it now. And, I did. Anyway, I had about 4 peanuts to fill in the gap and actually ate one piece of Christmas candy (a chocolate covered pretzel, which was good but not the same tasting as before HCG), and then, before the pizza came out of the oven, I chopped up my peppers and ate them first. I drank a cup of water. Then, I waited until the pizza I wanted (2 meat, lots of cheese) came out of the oven. I had one piece, eaten slower with a knife and fork. But, I still ate it fast. I knew I had one left, so I drank some more water, ate some whole black olives. Back for piece of pizza #2. I chose from the same pizza, and got more olives. By the end, I was full. About an hour later, I decided to eat my Lara bar (that was a chocolate chip Lara bar) for dessert, and I had more water.
SO, the scale this morning. What did it say? I was DOWN 0.2 pounds. I'm at 34.4 pounds "released." I am stunned. Pizza? On a diet? And I lost? I think what I'm losing is the gorge part of my brain. I'm slowly, and surely, getting is reprogrammed by God and hHCG. Hallelujah!
Day 10/21
I cannot believe it! Last night, I went to my friend's house for homemade pizza night. I was a little worried because I haven't intentionally eaten that many carbs (pizza dough) in 2 months (since starting HCG on October 15). Well, I went armed with 4 things:
- Lemon water (I downed a bunch on the way there, and drank 2 - 3 16 ounce glasses while there)
- A Lara bar (for dessert if I really felt the desire)
- 2 peppers (one red and one orange) as filler
- Prayer
So, while we didn't eat until later than I normally would, I didn't care/freak out (I'm just realizing now) because, that's life. That'll be my life AFTER HCG, so, I better get used to it now. And, I did. Anyway, I had about 4 peanuts to fill in the gap and actually ate one piece of Christmas candy (a chocolate covered pretzel, which was good but not the same tasting as before HCG), and then, before the pizza came out of the oven, I chopped up my peppers and ate them first. I drank a cup of water. Then, I waited until the pizza I wanted (2 meat, lots of cheese) came out of the oven. I had one piece, eaten slower with a knife and fork. But, I still ate it fast. I knew I had one left, so I drank some more water, ate some whole black olives. Back for piece of pizza #2. I chose from the same pizza, and got more olives. By the end, I was full. About an hour later, I decided to eat my Lara bar (that was a chocolate chip Lara bar) for dessert, and I had more water.
SO, the scale this morning. What did it say? I was DOWN 0.2 pounds. I'm at 34.4 pounds "released." I am stunned. Pizza? On a diet? And I lost? I think what I'm losing is the gorge part of my brain. I'm slowly, and surely, getting is reprogrammed by God and hHCG. Hallelujah!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
R1P4D9/21 - Banana Bread Bounce Back
December 17, 2011
Day 9/21
Don't let that title fool you ... I actually don't have any bouncing back to do. I just like alliteration (repetition of consonant sounds). Yes, I ate about 1/2 a small piece of banana bread last night. And sauteed mushrooms and onions (those are okay) and lightly breaded tilapia for lunch (baked) and fruit on the bottom Greek Yogurt (my big splurge). I didn't gain anything. Wow. Some mornings, I am utterly amazed.
Tonight is the big trial. My friend wants me to come over for their family's pizza night. It's SO easy to over eat pizza. I think I'll plan ahead and bring some stuff with me to fill in the cracks (P3 approved), so when I am solidly eating P4 carbs, I'll not gain (or not gain 1.8 pounds that will take me over my LDW).
After all, planning promotes perseverance (I couldn't resist more alliteration!).
Day 9/21
Don't let that title fool you ... I actually don't have any bouncing back to do. I just like alliteration (repetition of consonant sounds). Yes, I ate about 1/2 a small piece of banana bread last night. And sauteed mushrooms and onions (those are okay) and lightly breaded tilapia for lunch (baked) and fruit on the bottom Greek Yogurt (my big splurge). I didn't gain anything. Wow. Some mornings, I am utterly amazed.
Tonight is the big trial. My friend wants me to come over for their family's pizza night. It's SO easy to over eat pizza. I think I'll plan ahead and bring some stuff with me to fill in the cracks (P3 approved), so when I am solidly eating P4 carbs, I'll not gain (or not gain 1.8 pounds that will take me over my LDW).
After all, planning promotes perseverance (I couldn't resist more alliteration!).
Friday, December 16, 2011
R1P4D8/21 - Fight Fight Fight Fight Fight!
December 16, 2011
Day 8/21
Phase 4 is, well, all about perseverance. Especially during the Holiday season. Food abounds. Lots of cheating opportunities. But, really, any diet is what the dieter makes of it. I could cheat. Yep, I sure could. I could white knuckle it. I've done that many times in many diets. But, this time, I chose to do neither. I choose to overcome.
So, perserverance in the face of adversity (my own) is the name of the game.
That's about it for today. Just remember, no matter who (including yourself) or what is trying to get you down, if you work to overcome, Jesus "will give the right to sit with [Him] on [His] throne, just as [He] ha[s] overcome & sat down with [His] Father on His throne." - Revelation 3:21
Fight the urge for revenge, gluttony, anger, speeding, stealing, sex, lying ... and you will overcome!
Day 8/21
Phase 4 is, well, all about perseverance. Especially during the Holiday season. Food abounds. Lots of cheating opportunities. But, really, any diet is what the dieter makes of it. I could cheat. Yep, I sure could. I could white knuckle it. I've done that many times in many diets. But, this time, I chose to do neither. I choose to overcome.
- "To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I have overcome & sat down with my Father on His throne." - Revelation 3:21
So, perserverance in the face of adversity (my own) is the name of the game.
That's about it for today. Just remember, no matter who (including yourself) or what is trying to get you down, if you work to overcome, Jesus "will give the right to sit with [Him] on [His] throne, just as [He] ha[s] overcome & sat down with [His] Father on His throne." - Revelation 3:21
Fight the urge for revenge, gluttony, anger, speeding, stealing, sex, lying ... and you will overcome!
Thursday, December 15, 2011
R1P4D7/21 - Muffins and muffin top
December 15, 2011
Day 7/21
Mom's surgery went well (Praise God!). What DIDN'T go well is, around 7 last night, I ate one of the free muffins I got at the hospital that I had been saving for my sweet-toothed-97.5-year-old-Gram. I already knew that was naughty. But, I was prepared for it. I had been "good" all day. Then, after devouring it (it wasn't that good), I found it had TWO servings (of course) and a whopping 50g of carbohydrate. So, needless to say, when I stepped onto the scale this morning, I was NOT expecting anything other than what I saw ... I was 2.5 pounds above my LDW (meaning, I gained 1.5 pounds overnight)!
So, that means, the 2 bowls of chili (with beans, sour cream, cheese and onions) + a piece of decadent fudge birthday cake w/a scoop of peppermint ice cream I had the night before for my Mom's birthday (I should mention, the scale went up 0.1 pounds the next morning) was about 250% better than one "free" muffin from the hospital. Gotta love that pre-packaged food! Did I say love? I meant hate. ; )
Of course, due to my wagon jump last night, I am correcting today. I did an add up and I've had 5 correction days (CD) in 20 days. Nice. Of course, I'll say, I had a fever, surgery and was sick during part of that.
Fortunately, gains happen & when corrected the very next day, the weight always comes off and then some, blah blah blah (if you've read my blog, you've heard it all before). Basically, I'm remaining positive, when I gain, it's ALWAYS to the same weight and when I lose, it's always back to the same weight. So, maybe I'm stabilized right where I'm supposed to be for now. Fortunately, I don't want to test that with going gang-busters on food (I don't ever want to do that again anyway). BUT, I have been making plans for certain things from my "load" list from a week or so ago. Christmas Eve, Christmas, movie night, Potterfest Day 1 & 2 (which happens to be New Year's Eve-eve and New Year's Eve, which are 2 of my 3 loading days) ... the plans are there. And, I bet I don't eat 1/2 or 3/4 of what I bring/want. No prob. Lord-willing, the food will always be there.
Oh, one more thing ... my hips are smaller and my "muffin top" (role around my middle) is almost completely gone! Hallelujah. Almost overnight (WHILE I gained). That's the cool thing about this diet/protocol. You can gain and still lose inches. It never ceases to amaze me. I still haven't tried the cleanse bath, but I'm going to borrow (if that's possible) one of my friend's jacuzzi-like tub (mine is a 1940 short tub) and try it out. If nothing happens, I'm out all of $6 (64 cents for the baking soda, $1 for an orange, $2 for salt, which I needed anyway, and $2 for 2 pounds of Epsom salt). At least I'll be clean! : )
Day 7/21
Mom's surgery went well (Praise God!). What DIDN'T go well is, around 7 last night, I ate one of the free muffins I got at the hospital that I had been saving for my sweet-toothed-97.5-year-old-Gram. I already knew that was naughty. But, I was prepared for it. I had been "good" all day. Then, after devouring it (it wasn't that good), I found it had TWO servings (of course) and a whopping 50g of carbohydrate. So, needless to say, when I stepped onto the scale this morning, I was NOT expecting anything other than what I saw ... I was 2.5 pounds above my LDW (meaning, I gained 1.5 pounds overnight)!
So, that means, the 2 bowls of chili (with beans, sour cream, cheese and onions) + a piece of decadent fudge birthday cake w/a scoop of peppermint ice cream I had the night before for my Mom's birthday (I should mention, the scale went up 0.1 pounds the next morning) was about 250% better than one "free" muffin from the hospital. Gotta love that pre-packaged food! Did I say love? I meant hate. ; )
Of course, due to my wagon jump last night, I am correcting today. I did an add up and I've had 5 correction days (CD) in 20 days. Nice. Of course, I'll say, I had a fever, surgery and was sick during part of that.
Fortunately, gains happen & when corrected the very next day, the weight always comes off and then some, blah blah blah (if you've read my blog, you've heard it all before). Basically, I'm remaining positive, when I gain, it's ALWAYS to the same weight and when I lose, it's always back to the same weight. So, maybe I'm stabilized right where I'm supposed to be for now. Fortunately, I don't want to test that with going gang-busters on food (I don't ever want to do that again anyway). BUT, I have been making plans for certain things from my "load" list from a week or so ago. Christmas Eve, Christmas, movie night, Potterfest Day 1 & 2 (which happens to be New Year's Eve-eve and New Year's Eve, which are 2 of my 3 loading days) ... the plans are there. And, I bet I don't eat 1/2 or 3/4 of what I bring/want. No prob. Lord-willing, the food will always be there.
Oh, one more thing ... my hips are smaller and my "muffin top" (role around my middle) is almost completely gone! Hallelujah. Almost overnight (WHILE I gained). That's the cool thing about this diet/protocol. You can gain and still lose inches. It never ceases to amaze me. I still haven't tried the cleanse bath, but I'm going to borrow (if that's possible) one of my friend's jacuzzi-like tub (mine is a 1940 short tub) and try it out. If nothing happens, I'm out all of $6 (64 cents for the baking soda, $1 for an orange, $2 for salt, which I needed anyway, and $2 for 2 pounds of Epsom salt). At least I'll be clean! : )
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
R1P4D5/21 - A Partridge In A Pear Tree!
December 13, 2011
Day 5/21
First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Mom! I love you!
Round 4 is, well, moving along. It's been filled with birthday parties (tonight is the 2nd), work potlucks (which I am not going to partake in today) and one Christmas party. There will be more. So, at this point, I'm wondering if I'll be doing a correction day every other day? I hope not. I don't think I can stomach the food.
Yesterday, I decided to go with a rotisserie chicken for my correction day. For dinner, I ate about 20 cherry tomatoes, and about 1/2 of a HUGE roty (as we call them) chicken from Sam's. It was yummy. In the end, I lost 2.1 pounds. So, I lost what I gained from the day before and then some, but I still didn't get back to my LDW. I need another 0.9 off to hit that. I had half of a notion to do a 2nd correction day today, if I wasn't going to Mom's 2nd birthday party tonight! : )
I heard about a detox bath (thank you, Abbie!), and I might try it tomorrow night. It's supposed to help your body release toxins (duh, Julia!), and the people who do HCG end up losing at least a pound with it. I want to get back to the weight I was (1.7 pounds less, which was 0.8 below LDW) last Tuesday, before my wisdom tooth came out and I got that dreaded sugar IV when I was put under. I think it's wreaked havoc on my system since I was sugar free (I sound like I'm a piece of food!) for over 2 months. My goal is to hit my loading days at or below my LDW. Here's the "recipe" I received:
So, 12 days until Christmas (start singing the song everyone!) ... I hope it is a blessed, safe and happy one for you all!
Day 5/21
First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Mom! I love you!
Round 4 is, well, moving along. It's been filled with birthday parties (tonight is the 2nd), work potlucks (which I am not going to partake in today) and one Christmas party. There will be more. So, at this point, I'm wondering if I'll be doing a correction day every other day? I hope not. I don't think I can stomach the food.
Yesterday, I decided to go with a rotisserie chicken for my correction day. For dinner, I ate about 20 cherry tomatoes, and about 1/2 of a HUGE roty (as we call them) chicken from Sam's. It was yummy. In the end, I lost 2.1 pounds. So, I lost what I gained from the day before and then some, but I still didn't get back to my LDW. I need another 0.9 off to hit that. I had half of a notion to do a 2nd correction day today, if I wasn't going to Mom's 2nd birthday party tonight! : )
I heard about a detox bath (thank you, Abbie!), and I might try it tomorrow night. It's supposed to help your body release toxins (duh, Julia!), and the people who do HCG end up losing at least a pound with it. I want to get back to the weight I was (1.7 pounds less, which was 0.8 below LDW) last Tuesday, before my wisdom tooth came out and I got that dreaded sugar IV when I was put under. I think it's wreaked havoc on my system since I was sugar free (I sound like I'm a piece of food!) for over 2 months. My goal is to hit my loading days at or below my LDW. Here's the "recipe" I received:
- 1 lb. Epson salt
- 1 lb. baking soda
- As hot of water as you can stand
- 1 orange (in slices) --- OPTIONAL
- Table salt --- OPTIONAL
- Sit in the bath for 20 minutes
- If you feel dizzy and/or light-headed (this is when you add the orange slices and table salt if this occurs)
So, 12 days until Christmas (start singing the song everyone!) ... I hope it is a blessed, safe and happy one for you all!
Monday, December 12, 2011
R1P4D4/21 - Trying to get the hang of P4
December 12, 2011
Day 4/21
This Phase 4 thing is difficult ... when you have a swollen jaw and an incision in your mouth, your Mom's birthday party and Dad's Christmas party to eat at. I'm an over-achiever ... I gained 3 pounds. Sooooooo, I'm doing a correction day today. This should be fun, trying to eat 24 ounces of steak and a tomato with a very sore jaw!
So, check back tomorrow to see if my little ticker has moved back from to between 30 - 32ish pounds off.
Day 4/21
This Phase 4 thing is difficult ... when you have a swollen jaw and an incision in your mouth, your Mom's birthday party and Dad's Christmas party to eat at. I'm an over-achiever ... I gained 3 pounds. Sooooooo, I'm doing a correction day today. This should be fun, trying to eat 24 ounces of steak and a tomato with a very sore jaw!
So, check back tomorrow to see if my little ticker has moved back from to between 30 - 32ish pounds off.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Loading Days --> Let The Plotting Begin!
I think it was yesterday or the day before when I said I wanted to make a list of all of the, "Oh, I'm going to have that on my loading days" foods that I have been blathering about. It'll probably astound me when I see what I put on here ... and I'm CERTAIN I won't even touch the tip of the iceberg of it. But, it'll be fascinating for me to revisit later. Feel free to comment with other things YOU'D like to eat on a loading day, because I'm open to suggestions!
ON THE LIST
ON THE LIST
- Meatloaf & mashed potatoes
- Basta's Pasta Compomare & bread with sweet garlic butter -- it's about enough to feed a small town, so I don't see it happening, since the left-overs would be too much to eat in 2 days
- Mongolian Beef from Szechuan Gardens
- Egg Rolls (with sweet & sour sauce) from Egg Roll Express
- Red Lobster's cheesy rolls
- Garlic bread with tuna/mayo & pepper jack cheese
- Indian Food
- Fried Green Tomatoes
- KFC
- Corn
- Fruit pie
- McDonald's McRib -- these were the first thing on, and the first thing off! They actually look disgusting to me now!
- Mashed Potatoes & brown gravy -- had it at my Dad's house on 12/11
- Egg Nog -- had some on 12/10 (not all that yummy anymore ... too sweet!)
- Crumpets (OH so yummy, with butter, Devonshire clotted cream & homemade grape jelly!)
- Hummus -- had some the week of December 11
- Babaganous -- had some the week of December 11
- Chocolate chip cookie -- my step-Mom made me some and I had one on December 20
- Sushi -- December 20 Christmas dinner with Dad
- Coconut shrimp -- December 20 Christmas dinner with Dad
- Peanut Butter Chicken from Dynasty Buffet -- December 22 Christmas lunch with coworkers
- Chili Rellenos (my friend Linda's recipe) -- December 24 Christmas Eve dinner
- Chocolate covered cherries -- December 25 Christmas lunch/dinner
- Belgian Chocolates -- December 25
- Green Bean Casserole -- December 25 Christmas lunch/dinner
- Cheesy potatoes -- December 25 Christmas lunch/dinner
- Tanner's apple fritter -- Christmas
- Fried bologna sandwich -- December 27
- Movie theater popcorn & Coke Zero -- December 27
- Italian Wedding cake from Sam's -- December 30 loading
- Hotdogs, filled with cheese and wrapped in a crescent roll -- December 30/31 loading
- Beef Consomme Rice -- December 30 loading -- December 30/31 loading
- BBQ weenies -- December 30 loading -- December 30/31 loading
- Kitchen Cooked Potato chips -- December 30/31 loading
- Cheetos -- December 30/31 loading
- French onion dip -- December 30/31 loading
R1P3D20/21 - Almost P4 Ready!
December 7, 2011
D20/21
Well, thanks to the glucose filled IV bag I got yesterday when the oral surgeon put me under to remove my last wisdom tooth, I gained 1.4 pounds. Pure sugar coming into my body after 53 days was going to cause a gain. I guess I could have asked them to use something else, but OH WELL! Stupid me for not thinking about it until HOURS later.
At least I'm still 0.6 above LDW (I have 1.5 more to go before a correction day is needed). So, that means, I'm still good. Of course, I liked being 0.8 below, so that would give me 2.9 pounds of padding!). I'll eat clean today and tomorrow, and probably even Friday (meaning, no or VERY low carbs) because Mom's birthday dinner on Saturday won't be the lowest carb thing around (mostaccioli, garlic bread, salad and ande's mint homemade cake)! But, it'll be yummy and what she wants!
So, I guess I better eat my breakfast, since it's 10, I've been up since 8, and my tummy is growling. Here's to me almost seeing the end of Round 1, Phase 3. It feels like I've been on this journey forever, and just a minute ago. Weird.
D20/21
Well, thanks to the glucose filled IV bag I got yesterday when the oral surgeon put me under to remove my last wisdom tooth, I gained 1.4 pounds. Pure sugar coming into my body after 53 days was going to cause a gain. I guess I could have asked them to use something else, but OH WELL! Stupid me for not thinking about it until HOURS later.
At least I'm still 0.6 above LDW (I have 1.5 more to go before a correction day is needed). So, that means, I'm still good. Of course, I liked being 0.8 below, so that would give me 2.9 pounds of padding!). I'll eat clean today and tomorrow, and probably even Friday (meaning, no or VERY low carbs) because Mom's birthday dinner on Saturday won't be the lowest carb thing around (mostaccioli, garlic bread, salad and ande's mint homemade cake)! But, it'll be yummy and what she wants!
So, I guess I better eat my breakfast, since it's 10, I've been up since 8, and my tummy is growling. Here's to me almost seeing the end of Round 1, Phase 3. It feels like I've been on this journey forever, and just a minute ago. Weird.
Monday, December 5, 2011
R1P3D18/21 - Out with the old (habits) and in with the new, next year of course!
December 5, 2011
Day 18/21
I'm listening to Christmas music (which I do every year for the month between Christmas and Thanksgiving). I have 380 classic renditions of Christmas carols on my iPod, which I'm listening to right now. RIGHT when I started typing this entry, what song immediately started the fanfare? The Hallelujah Chorus. I laughed out loud. Because what am I going to write about today?
I'm stabilized.
I have been within 2 pounds (at or under) my LDW (from November 16) for a week. Hallelujah! And, before that weirdness of fever, Thanksgiving and birthday (no cheating, just weirdness), I was stable below my LDW (1.3 pounds below) for a week. So, I'm at 0.8 pounds below LDW, and I think that's where I'm staying. I even ate Ezekiel bread yesterday and the day before. Fine, it was only one piece, but, bread is bread, people!
OH, and, on Saturday, I went out to eat for the first time since October 16, my loading day. We went to TGI Friday. I normally don't like to have a "Sally" moment (from the movie, When Harry Met Sally) with waitresses, but I was able to pull it off pretty well ... I ordered a cheeseburger the way I wanted it ... with avocado, tomato, grilled onions, lettuce and bacon. I took off the bun, gave the fries to JoEllen and kids/grandson, and then ate a wedge salad with blue cheese crumbles, bacon (meat candy!!!!!) vinegar & oil and tomato cubes. For lunch, I didn't starve. I had a buffalo burger with 2 slices of pepperjack cheese (and 1 slice of Ezekiel bread) with homemade mayo & asparagus. For breakfast, I had bacon and eggs. All P3 approved food. Did the scale go up an ounce? Nope! Oh, and when we got back to JoEllen's house and played 2 games of Hand-and-Foot, for a snack, I had a bowl full of mixed nuts. It is funny how bad habits kick in ... I've found myself WOLFING down food only at birthday parties/Thanksgiving/card playing at JoEllen's ... all places where I would eat comfort food. The difference is, I'm wolfing down good choices (real food, not low fat or pre-packaged anything). But, I've got to learn NOT to wolf down food. I think I'll be working on that in Round 2, which begins on January 2.
Yesterday, I made a PILE of fried eggs and bacon for the week (I'm getting my final wisdom tooth out tomorrow, so I'm thinking I'll need lots of soft foods to eat for a day or two ... Fage no sugar Greek Yogurt, Wisconsin's Best Cottage Cheese and Eggs will be my new best friends). I had 2 eggs & 5 (count them, FIVE) pieces of bacon (I had a few extras that didn't fit in the packages I made (wink) for breakfast. I had a buffalo burger and a piece of Ezekiel for lunch (that was it). Then, went for a walk with my friend Kate and her dog Lucy, went shopping at PetSmart for over and hour, and then home for a dinner of about 4 cups of tea, roasted chicken (spices and butter) and roasted veggies (spices & olive oil + olive oil w/black truffles) of 3 colors of peppers, onions Onions ONIONS and mushrooms, and a movie and fire with my 2 friends, Kate and Linda (and Lucy dog). It rocked.
What did the scale do this morning? Nothing. It stayed flat.
Therefore, I am declaring myself stabilized! I have 4 more weigh-ins, so Lord willing, it will stay that way. I don't see myself behaving any differently in the next few days, so it should stay the same.
So, soon I'll be moving into P4 (eat whatever you want, but be sensible). I'm not sure what will happen, but I plan on eating some of my faves, but in between, eating about the same as P3. Low to no Carb most days. Special days, like potlucks at work, birthdays, Christmas, I'll indulge a BIT at one meal. But that'll be it. Just that meal. That's a HUGE change for me. In the past, if I was going to blow it for one meal, I blew it (and I mean, BLEW IT!) for the whole day (and then some).
Maybe I'll make a list of the things I want to eat in P4, so I can come back and reference it later. I'll do that in a separate note.
Happy Advent Day 5. I hope you are enjoying the Christmas season.
Day 18/21
I'm listening to Christmas music (which I do every year for the month between Christmas and Thanksgiving). I have 380 classic renditions of Christmas carols on my iPod, which I'm listening to right now. RIGHT when I started typing this entry, what song immediately started the fanfare? The Hallelujah Chorus. I laughed out loud. Because what am I going to write about today?
I'm stabilized.
I have been within 2 pounds (at or under) my LDW (from November 16) for a week. Hallelujah! And, before that weirdness of fever, Thanksgiving and birthday (no cheating, just weirdness), I was stable below my LDW (1.3 pounds below) for a week. So, I'm at 0.8 pounds below LDW, and I think that's where I'm staying. I even ate Ezekiel bread yesterday and the day before. Fine, it was only one piece, but, bread is bread, people!
OH, and, on Saturday, I went out to eat for the first time since October 16, my loading day. We went to TGI Friday. I normally don't like to have a "Sally" moment (from the movie, When Harry Met Sally) with waitresses, but I was able to pull it off pretty well ... I ordered a cheeseburger the way I wanted it ... with avocado, tomato, grilled onions, lettuce and bacon. I took off the bun, gave the fries to JoEllen and kids/grandson, and then ate a wedge salad with blue cheese crumbles, bacon (meat candy!!!!!) vinegar & oil and tomato cubes. For lunch, I didn't starve. I had a buffalo burger with 2 slices of pepperjack cheese (and 1 slice of Ezekiel bread) with homemade mayo & asparagus. For breakfast, I had bacon and eggs. All P3 approved food. Did the scale go up an ounce? Nope! Oh, and when we got back to JoEllen's house and played 2 games of Hand-and-Foot, for a snack, I had a bowl full of mixed nuts. It is funny how bad habits kick in ... I've found myself WOLFING down food only at birthday parties/Thanksgiving/card playing at JoEllen's ... all places where I would eat comfort food. The difference is, I'm wolfing down good choices (real food, not low fat or pre-packaged anything). But, I've got to learn NOT to wolf down food. I think I'll be working on that in Round 2, which begins on January 2.
Yesterday, I made a PILE of fried eggs and bacon for the week (I'm getting my final wisdom tooth out tomorrow, so I'm thinking I'll need lots of soft foods to eat for a day or two ... Fage no sugar Greek Yogurt, Wisconsin's Best Cottage Cheese and Eggs will be my new best friends). I had 2 eggs & 5 (count them, FIVE) pieces of bacon (I had a few extras that didn't fit in the packages I made (wink) for breakfast. I had a buffalo burger and a piece of Ezekiel for lunch (that was it). Then, went for a walk with my friend Kate and her dog Lucy, went shopping at PetSmart for over and hour, and then home for a dinner of about 4 cups of tea, roasted chicken (spices and butter) and roasted veggies (spices & olive oil + olive oil w/black truffles) of 3 colors of peppers, onions Onions ONIONS and mushrooms, and a movie and fire with my 2 friends, Kate and Linda (and Lucy dog). It rocked.
What did the scale do this morning? Nothing. It stayed flat.
Therefore, I am declaring myself stabilized! I have 4 more weigh-ins, so Lord willing, it will stay that way. I don't see myself behaving any differently in the next few days, so it should stay the same.
So, soon I'll be moving into P4 (eat whatever you want, but be sensible). I'm not sure what will happen, but I plan on eating some of my faves, but in between, eating about the same as P3. Low to no Carb most days. Special days, like potlucks at work, birthdays, Christmas, I'll indulge a BIT at one meal. But that'll be it. Just that meal. That's a HUGE change for me. In the past, if I was going to blow it for one meal, I blew it (and I mean, BLEW IT!) for the whole day (and then some).
Maybe I'll make a list of the things I want to eat in P4, so I can come back and reference it later. I'll do that in a separate note.
Happy Advent Day 5. I hope you are enjoying the Christmas season.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
R1P3D16/21 - Have my chickens hatched yet? Because I really want to count them!
December 3, 2011
Day 16/21
Well, I lost another 1.1 pounds on the scale this morning (I've lost 34.3 pounds since October 17). Have you seen them? That makes me 0.2 pounds away from losing TOO much (never thought I'd say that in my life). I went to a school program last night that had dessert there, and came armed with my Lara bars (2). I ate both. AND, I had another one at work. THREE Lara bars? And, I ate a bunch of eggs yesterday and cottage cheese, cheese wafers and 2 helpings of bacon. Holy buckets. I think I'm stabilized. No, can't be. We'll see in the next 6 days of weigh-ins as I finish out P3.
I do get my final wisdom tooth out on Tuesday, so I might have trouble eating my last few P3 days. I'm going to have to eat a LOT of eggs to keep my protein up. I've found when the protein stays up, all is right with the world (on the scale).
Oh, and I measured myself this morning (last was 2 weeks ago). In the last 2 weeks, on P3 (the no-weight-loss section), I've lost at least an inch from most places (chest, stomach, hips, rear, both thighs, both upper arms, my neck, etc.). I was stunned. But, good stunned. I'm still losing inches even though I'm holding steady on weight in the stabilized Phase 3. C.r.a.z.y. But, awesome.
Day 16/21
Well, I lost another 1.1 pounds on the scale this morning (I've lost 34.3 pounds since October 17). Have you seen them? That makes me 0.2 pounds away from losing TOO much (never thought I'd say that in my life). I went to a school program last night that had dessert there, and came armed with my Lara bars (2). I ate both. AND, I had another one at work. THREE Lara bars? And, I ate a bunch of eggs yesterday and cottage cheese, cheese wafers and 2 helpings of bacon. Holy buckets. I think I'm stabilized. No, can't be. We'll see in the next 6 days of weigh-ins as I finish out P3.
I do get my final wisdom tooth out on Tuesday, so I might have trouble eating my last few P3 days. I'm going to have to eat a LOT of eggs to keep my protein up. I've found when the protein stays up, all is right with the world (on the scale).
Oh, and I measured myself this morning (last was 2 weeks ago). In the last 2 weeks, on P3 (the no-weight-loss section), I've lost at least an inch from most places (chest, stomach, hips, rear, both thighs, both upper arms, my neck, etc.). I was stunned. But, good stunned. I'm still losing inches even though I'm holding steady on weight in the stabilized Phase 3. C.r.a.z.y. But, awesome.
Friday, December 2, 2011
R1P3D15/21 - I'm not budging!
December 2, 2011
Day 15/21
I'm holding steady at 0.7 below my Wednesday, November 16, LDW. Woo hoo! Counting today, I have 7 days left. I'm praying I stay right where I am, because that will mean all of the potlucks, lunches out with work, birthdays, Christmas and New Year's Eve food opportunities may not make me gain!
Day 15/21
I'm holding steady at 0.7 below my Wednesday, November 16, LDW. Woo hoo! Counting today, I have 7 days left. I'm praying I stay right where I am, because that will mean all of the potlucks, lunches out with work, birthdays, Christmas and New Year's Eve food opportunities may not make me gain!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
R1P3D14/21 - Hm?
December 1, 2011
Day 14/21
First, let me say, HAPPY DECEMBER 1! I love December. My Mom's birthday, my honorary niece's 6th birthday (Elizabeth) and Jesus' birthday. Awesome. Three people I love, all ready to be celebrated!
Okay, so, yesterday, I ate normal P3 foods again, and, this morning, I lost 1.1 pounds. Huh? I guess the yo-yo is still on the downward throw. I'm within my 2 pounds under LDW (again, counting from Wednesday, November 16, not the higher Tuesday, November 15). I have 7 days left of P3 to stick with my program of P3/P4, so I can start my second round by January 2. I want a solid 35 days in P2 in this next round. I can't wait to see how I look after a 2nd round! No weddings, birthdays (besides my honorary niece, Julia's, 9th birthday, but she'll understand when I eat my food instead of her birthday dinner!) or holidays to derail/try to get by. I'm hoping I'll lose another 33 pounds. That almost astounds me just thinking what that number would be! 66 pounds? That's a small child. Actually, that's a medium child. Right now, I've lost a small child (or cinder block ... see my weight loss comparison to every day objects blog). I'm getting excited about starting again.
Funny, because the only thing I haven't had (and occasionally want) is carbs ... a little cracker, or garlic bread, or a little pasta, or a little rice, or ... major yum ... movie theater butter drenched in futter (my word I just made up for fake butter). Maybe I should call it buke (butter, fake)? Uh, no. I'm already plotting a few of those things for P4 (Sherlock Holmes 2 comes out on December 16, and I already have plans to go and share a BIG bucket. But, I have to stabilize in P3 first. I'm not sure if going 1.1 pounds down today makes me LESS stable. We'll see!
So, as I happily enter my favorite month of the year, December, I reflect on the real reason for my joy. Jesus. Family. Friends. Having a stable job and a steady paycheck. Health. My house. And, enough (too much!) food to eat. I hope you have those things too. Weight, while a fun thing to have success with, really isn't that important. I am grateful God has brought this to me, and has given me the strength (joy & peace) to keep going even when I'm baffled. But, I know that my weight doesn't have eternal purpose. My attitude, and how I walk with and talk to others matters. So, I'm grateful that God opened my eyes to the fact that I don't need food to be happy, and that it doesn't have to make me miserable. I need Him. And, I've got Him. I hope you do too.
Day 14/21
First, let me say, HAPPY DECEMBER 1! I love December. My Mom's birthday, my honorary niece's 6th birthday (Elizabeth) and Jesus' birthday. Awesome. Three people I love, all ready to be celebrated!
Okay, so, yesterday, I ate normal P3 foods again, and, this morning, I lost 1.1 pounds. Huh? I guess the yo-yo is still on the downward throw. I'm within my 2 pounds under LDW (again, counting from Wednesday, November 16, not the higher Tuesday, November 15). I have 7 days left of P3 to stick with my program of P3/P4, so I can start my second round by January 2. I want a solid 35 days in P2 in this next round. I can't wait to see how I look after a 2nd round! No weddings, birthdays (besides my honorary niece, Julia's, 9th birthday, but she'll understand when I eat my food instead of her birthday dinner!) or holidays to derail/try to get by. I'm hoping I'll lose another 33 pounds. That almost astounds me just thinking what that number would be! 66 pounds? That's a small child. Actually, that's a medium child. Right now, I've lost a small child (or cinder block ... see my weight loss comparison to every day objects blog). I'm getting excited about starting again.
Funny, because the only thing I haven't had (and occasionally want) is carbs ... a little cracker, or garlic bread, or a little pasta, or a little rice, or ... major yum ... movie theater butter drenched in futter (my word I just made up for fake butter). Maybe I should call it buke (butter, fake)? Uh, no. I'm already plotting a few of those things for P4 (Sherlock Holmes 2 comes out on December 16, and I already have plans to go and share a BIG bucket. But, I have to stabilize in P3 first. I'm not sure if going 1.1 pounds down today makes me LESS stable. We'll see!
So, as I happily enter my favorite month of the year, December, I reflect on the real reason for my joy. Jesus. Family. Friends. Having a stable job and a steady paycheck. Health. My house. And, enough (too much!) food to eat. I hope you have those things too. Weight, while a fun thing to have success with, really isn't that important. I am grateful God has brought this to me, and has given me the strength (joy & peace) to keep going even when I'm baffled. But, I know that my weight doesn't have eternal purpose. My attitude, and how I walk with and talk to others matters. So, I'm grateful that God opened my eyes to the fact that I don't need food to be happy, and that it doesn't have to make me miserable. I need Him. And, I've got Him. I hope you do too.
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